This was supposed to be my year, where things could really start moving in a favorable direction. But you proved to be a formidable opponent, one really insistent on raining on my parade and that of everyone else.
You’ve made me question my self worth more times than I’ve ever done before. I’ve learned to say I’m lonely because of you and that is never easy to say. I’ve learned to say that I need help because you brought me to the precipice of losing all hope. Because of you I’ve learned that the grass isn’t always greener on the other side.
But your lessons haven’t all been bad. I learned that stuff I liked to do as a little kid is still fun as an adult. I learned that my family is always there and always loves me. Travel is fun and something I am destined to do more of. Perhaps most importantly, I’m learning to believe in the idea that things take time but eventually I’ll get to where I’m supposed to be.
So 2020 I’m glad to see you go and I can only hope the new year gets better because after you there’s really no direction to go but up.
Regards,
Amanda Greenwood
