Tests beget tests. That’s what I keep reminding myself. The truth though is besides from being tired of all the testing and scared of the possibility that they might find something, I’m really just angry and frustrated. I know it’s all to be through and for the sake of my future but at what point do I get a break? For almost the last 18 months it’s been one thing after another. Everyone keeps telling me things will calm down but every time I think I might be approaching that point another test begets tests. I want so badly to put a close to this chapter of my story but the truth is I’m just not there yet. And I can’t compare my story to others. I just have to have hope and faith that the tests all return desirable results.
Me waiting for a CT scan last week
mandajgreenwood 
I know this feeling all too well. Although my circumstances were a bit different — I had just finished chemo — the testing went on (and continues) and the desire to put it all behind me was teasingly close before realizing that there would be no such thing. Great post.
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Thank you! It’s true, there’s always something to test.
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